Wow...I would never say I will start my own blog...WTF -_-'
Anyways I'll treat it like my life journal so I can remember how f*cked up life I was leading (hopefully I will be more happy in future...)
For those who read my journal: as you have noticed (or not) I am adding some youtube music clips. Basically this is the music I am listening to while writing the new posts. This is the music I love, this is the music which helps me write everything straight from my mind/heart.
|Posted by tgchan on July 2, 2012 at 1:30 PM||comments (0)|
Finally after a year I have gathered enough motivation and will to update this site and add some new content... I hope you will enjoy it!
Being lazy is really exhausting...
|Posted by tgchan on June 10, 2011 at 7:43 PM||comments (0)|
Since December 26, 2006 my life has changed...
Finally I had a goal in life and the confidence in what I am doing...
After all these years I am forced to semi-retire from my gaming career which has never really started...
Due to lack of any gaming success(no proper people to play with/no team/no personal achievements) I am all b...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on May 9, 2011 at 1:20 PM||comments (0)|
Thank you all for some nice words and appreciation.
Unfortunately I have stopped updating my site some time ago. I am thinking of coming back, maybe some youtube channel or something but it will consume lots of my time which I spend currently for gaming so I am not sure yet.
Anyways I am still here, still not sure where I am heading...
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|Posted by tgchan on January 13, 2011 at 8:49 PM||comments (0)|
I have lost motivation to write new things here. Nobody give a shit anyways.
I have quit CS:S and moved to CS. Formed the team of people with whom I can play a lot.
Am I happy now? No. I wake up only to wait for training so I can play with team; problems, problems and problems... always something on my way. I have lost job (not because of me) and now I have to l...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on October 19, 2010 at 3:27 PM||comments (0)|
Long time since I have updated my journal...
First of all I would like to say sorry to all people I have hurt recently, especially guys from steam.
Sometimes I just can't stand reality so much I have to " turn myself off ", be alone etc.
I hate wh...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on September 13, 2010 at 2:47 PM||comments (0)|
Obsessive–compulsive disorder... + a lil bit of mysophobia.
This is what I got (for sure)...and many more I bet lol
Few weeks ago I was watching again " Matchstick Men " movie, it is really great.
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|Posted by tgchan on August 16, 2010 at 8:54 AM||comments (0)|
I feel that I am extremely intelligent...
I can read people like an open book,
I can see angles nobody else can see,
I can adjust to every situation immediately,
I can get into someones mind and know how they feel, what they think,
I can foresee react...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on August 5, 2010 at 6:17 PM||comments (0)|
I am back to css again. It is not the same comeback as in the past. I just play some dm and 2vs2 on esl with my friend. Nothing serious, no more any dreams involved...
I am sh1t and I want be better and better, get good team and do as much as I can but it is not like in old times anymore... I don't play dm for hours, I don't force myself to play sh1t mixes just to get better...
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|Posted by tgchan on August 1, 2010 at 9:27 AM||comments (0)|
I am losing it all the way now...
I can't even say what is wrong but I can feel it... I can feel that I am totally dead.
Is it because I gave up on my dream ? Is it because wherever I go I can't find the place for myself ? Why do I see everything in black now ?
Omfg what the fuck is happ...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on July 28, 2010 at 11:01 AM||comments (0)|
I really miss a good friend. The friend with who I could play same game, share fun, talk about random things etc. just a normal stuff I guess...
I felt really ok for few past days; I really enjoyed the gaming etc. but yesterday around 3am something has changed... so suddenly it almost felt liek punch.
I think I can't...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on July 17, 2010 at 6:07 AM||comments (0)|
It is so fcking hot that I am sweating my ass off just sitting around... that is bad for gaming... I'm telling you...
Today I will level up to 80lv with my rogue ( took me exactly 31days without being exping wh0re. I just enjoyed the game )Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on June 29, 2010 at 10:14 PM||comments (0)|
(It is 4:26am)
Because of the WoW servrer maintenance I wasn't able to play but I have watched another incredible fcking great movie instead.
A movie which is a pure art. The movie that will twist your brain and force to think about your existence and many other things...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on June 28, 2010 at 9:16 AM||comments (0)|
So finally I got what I wanted... This is how my day looks now:
- I wake up around 1 pm
- I make 50 push ups then 66 sit ups
- hoover my room/ mouse pad, keyboard etc. (one of my psychological problem)
- play on guitar for couple of minutes (I wasted money for it so I have to play on it for at least few minutes eve...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on June 21, 2010 at 1:18 PM||comments (0)|
Few days ago my brother bought me a WoW pack. I would never buy/play this game but since it was a b-day gift I had to give it a try...
I was always againts wow;
- too complicated
- you have to pay monthly for it
- too much stuff to learn
- game for noob...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on June 6, 2010 at 3:53 PM||comments (0)|
Depression is eating me alive.
Sometimes I have to go to sleep just to stop thinking because I feel like my head will explode.
I can't find place for myself...
..is there any...?
I have so much free time, I have so much dedication and discipline in mys...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on May 28, 2010 at 5:36 PM||comments (0)|
And I am messing with my settings again...
My team is barely active... All I do is aim/dm servers all the time...
Small crosshair is really not my thing... I was barely making 2/1 KPD most of the time with it.
Still looking for the settings which will makes me feel confident during the game. So far LARGE is doing pretty good....Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on May 27, 2010 at 10:20 AM||comments (0)|
I was damn tired of the old site, I had to change it. I hope you liek it. There is also a new page called "Ask me" go check it out for more info.
Still playing & still dreaming about big things ^^, nothing really interesting going on atm.
|Posted by tgchan on May 15, 2010 at 7:44 AM||comments (0)|
Being without a team sucks so much... I really don't wanna feel that again...
Few days ago my friend asked me if I don't wanan play with them again (team unified), I have answered YES without any doubt.
Before my friend's offer I was hopping to play with some UK team but it looks liek they don't give a shit about me anymo...Read Full Post »
|Posted by tgchan on May 10, 2010 at 7:13 AM||comments (0)|
Being no one is more exhausting than I thought...
Everything looks pointless, I don't wanna wake up because I know there is nothing waiting for me out there...
I look at people, their photos, their life... I feel like I am falling deeper and deeper...
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|Posted by tgchan on May 7, 2010 at 2:04 PM||comments (0)|
I am so fucking pissed I can barely control myself...
Last weekend when I was playing cs:s I let my anger go of few times, I yelled so loud I have damaged my vocal cords or something... My voice has been changed for almost 6 days and I could barely speak because of sore throat. I still have a cough...
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